Not worth being read

Last time was different...much different. Perhaps was due to the fact that I didn't have a notion of time and because of the absynth, or maybe even the noise and the people. Fuck knows.

The last thing I now take has to having been absolutely real was chatting to Ted and writting down in some window(was it yours jon?!) whatever I felt.

At first it was just a heavy head (which later disappeared), afterwards was a cruising stomach (also disappeared), then the pain in my whole body was gone (and for some reason it doesn't hurt unless someone hugs me real hard) and then absolute noooooooooooothing. AT ALL.

I said: Fuck it. If I am not too wrong I read a bit about the road code or waeva, got really bored and frustrated as I didnt feel anything. Smoked a really, really, really weak marroccan fag as I was a bit scared...I sparked it, no problem. BUT THEN MAN, BUT THEN

THEN I opened the door of my kitchen and the exaaaaaact moment I closed it I began hearing that sound of hundreds of people speaking. For some reason they all said my name, however not at the same time. I remember that I looked at the oven clock just after I closed the door it was 03:04 (4 hours after) and then the voices came gradually. I freaked out seriously lots and just stood there for what i thought it would have been 30 seconds. Those thirty second were nearly 20 minutes, as the clock now said 03:21. I was like - good!

I started walking and the fucking voices were still there as I opened the other door leading to the dayroom. Shafts of light came from the window, I thought it was a car passing or whatever. But fuck! car's lights aint that strong. They were powerfully strong yet I didnt feel blinded by them, I did not even close my eyes a bit or felt they were sensitive towards light they just took it without problems. I began too feel a little bit very chilled then.

I suddenly looked left and the voices stopped and my heart started beating so fast but so fast i got scared. Where i was looking at was DARK but I mean dark! Yet there were shafts of light coming from the window (bit wierd maybe). I went down on my knees as i began to freakout for some reason, was afraid of falling perhaps. So I sort of crawled towards the shady steps. I touched the first one and I had the feeling I was touching someting really warm. I went up two setps maybe and rapidly looked up and right to the handle.........it was absolutely green, as in propper green in the middle of the darkness, yet it's shape...I dont even know it didn't appear touchable. I looked away and then at it again and it was still green. The whole environment was real dodgy because i was afraid of waking up people and it was dark, the stairs were really confortable yet the whole environment seemed so uncomfortably scary! As if you are expecting someone to come from upstairs and point a gun at you or something, so you just try to behave reaaaaly slyly.

I finally got the courage to stand up, closed my eyes and walked to my room...Bad idea. When I closed my eyes I could see everything I thought of as if it was right in front of me, I really didn't want to open them, it felt like a refuge. When i opened the door of my room i opened my eyes for a sec and saw the visualizer effect window thing from itunes, then i shut them.

What happens now are the best 2 hours of my whole intire life so far and I feel so sad to not be able to put down here all the feelings in a way that you can identify yourselves with them mad everything I experienced in a coherent way.

I began to feel a post orgasmic feeling all over me as I got in the room yet the room was unfamiliar - I had to sit down. Just after I sat down I opened my eyes and focused on my screen for like 5 seconds. After those 5 seconds the effects would be wherever I looked with my eyes! If i moved my head they would disappear and I would suddenly feel very depressed. yet the center was the screen, it just insanely increased size! However, simultaneously I could see both the effects and my table, was something really strange man. I didnt feel i was sitting down actually! i dont know what i felt, But I couldnt feel that I was sitting. Moreover never in my whole intire simplistic idiotic life I had felt so sickly joyfully happy!

In the middle of this shape changing coulour moving environment I somehow grabbed my headphones. Some shit was playing, i cant remember what it was but it sooooooooounded so nice. The the effects were around again and haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...So nice.

-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH(really high pitched voice)

I heard some serious scream(I could nearly feel my testicles shaking because my heart was beating so fucking hard) after what i thought was maybe 2 hours. I was FREAKED OUT MAN. Became all tense! I just suddenly dared to look left to my nearly closed door...there was this light bue/light purpleish tone by the floor-it was the prettiest colour i have eeeever seen I actually wanted my skin to have that colour, And if i actually get the chance to see that colour again I'm gonna snatch it faster than light speed. I opened the door and saw what was emitting this colour. It was a ball of the same colour - I seriously wanted to grab it badly. It started going towads the steps, I followed it slowly, real slowly. Everything else was dark.

Next thing I remember was to be only on my boxers kneeling down on my garden looking to the sky (By the way it was pouring down, like buckets pouring water.) Whatever happened between following the light and being there I have no clue. I don't know for how long i had been there, but i was pretty wet.

I closed my eyes opened them again, there was a blinding green flash and I....woke up with the rising sun at around 7. Nearly naked, absolutely dry, with no pain whatsoever in my body and having the feeling that what happened in the past 4 hours had actually been a whole day.(After i stoop up I actually checked the calendar, and I thanked God it was sunday cause my parents wake up late.)

I dreamt with itunes visualizer effects, I'm so sure of that...